GOOD things about BAD times

I would always want to be happy... is it a crime? Well, No... but extremely stupid to desire something like this.

I am not saying one should not be happy. I mean, c'mmon why wouldn't someone want to feel good about the day just spent...

But lately I have realized that it is important to understand what 'happiness' is. Somehow after having experienced a couple of things in my life I now feel I was highly disillusioned by my understanding of the same.

This blog ain't about what happiness is. I guess different people perceive/define it differently. But in the recent times I have come to realize how myopic my outlook was towards life. I suddenly feel I have grown up... errrr, matured I mean :)

It wasn't an easy realization but yes, it called for a completely new outlook towards life. The 'GOOD things in BAD times' really taught me a lot. I just feel like enlisting a few prominent ones. The list wouldn't be exhaustive considering my brain cannot recollect everything at this given instance.

1. You realize your inner strength, which you are oblivious to otherwise (I feel) and it is such a pity that one is unaware of the abundant strength that dwells within every individual.
   
2. You know who your real friends are :)
3. The word 'Selflessness' takes a all new meaning in the form of people who are just there to make you believe that the world is still as beautiful as you thought it ever was.
4. God, do you introspect or what :D
5. Family is the best support system anyone can get. Period :)
6. Rationality suddenly seems to be the buzz word *chuckles*
   
7. Knowing that Logic wins hands down against Emotions :|
   
8. Ruthlessly pampered :D *Laughs devilishly*
   
9. Constantly reminded how good you are :D :D *Laughs a little more*
   
10. Development of an undying faith in a superior being (may not be true for all)
11. A belief in 'Whatever happens, happens for the good' * Thinks about it again as I read it, nods her head, says, 'This is so freaking true' *
    

I am sleepy now ... !!!!

--Peace
eL

Merry Christmas !!

I am in Edmonton, Canada for the Christmas week. It is darn cold out here where -30 seems to be a common temperature for most (uh oh :) ) But today even with this chill I feel particularly warm. I ponder for a while only to realise that it is the Christmas warmth all around me :)

Anywhere I see, I see light. Blues, reds and greens. Disparate colors yet the when they come together nothing could be more homogeneous. The picture is just too perfect. I am loving it :)

The pleasant sight of Mother Mary holding Jesus, Rudolph being hung on many doors, small children meddling around the hanging christmas socks and eagerly awaiting arrival of their dear Santa Claus is unparalleled. This festivity and merry brings nothing but a sense of calm. Reassuring that world is still a good place to live.

In current times when we hear of nothing but depressing economy, people of one religion killing others over god and land, I feel these festivities reinstate the fact that all religion preach goodness and prosperity for humanity in general.

Our ancestors strived hard to give us a world where we found love and peace. Our generation abused everything we inherited. If only we remember that the earth we live today is something that we have merely borrowed from our children then may be we will all stop this slaughter one day.

Here's hoping that we give our children an earth full of love and respect. Amen.
Merry X'mas to all.

Adios
-eL.

I am loved :)

Someone wrote this for me... just the right kind of thing when I felt unloved and uncared :)

You only dream about the perfect girl. She is usually a work of fiction, an artist's imagination, or a poet's verse. She lights up your day, and makes your heart jump with joy with every look at her. She is intelligent, beautiful and makes you feel alive.

Most lives are lived with only imagining such a beauty. Reading about her, watching her on screen, thinking about her in your dreams.

But i know of one such girl. She is strong and smart. Opinionated and emotional. She radiates a natural warmth that makes you fell happy to be around her. You long for her attention, and your day feels fulfilled even if she bestows upon u as much as a kind smile.

She has the beauty of the girl on the magazine at whom you can stare for hours. She sounds just like the song that fills your heart with joy and you have to listen to it over and over again. She smells like the fragrance that takes you home to a feeling of warmth and peace.

Ammu, you are that girl. You have the ability to make a thousands hearts bleed. It is impossible not to love you. It is impossible to ignore you. You have the words that captivate and the the personality that influences and the beauty that captures hearts.

With every day i know you, see you speak to u.. I am a better person.

:)

Chaand Bhi Dekha
Phool Bhi Dekha
Baadal Bijli Titli Jugnu
Koi Nahin Hai Aisa
Tera Husn Hai Jaisa

Meri Aankhon Ne Chuna Hai Tujhko Duniya Dekhkar
Kiska Chehra Ab Main Dekhoon
Tera Chehra Dekhkar

Simple is it yet the conveyed emotion feels complex.
Simple conundrum :)
I am amazed when the most simplest of words
come together to convey the most complex a feeling.
Words often fail me, I know.
Yet many choose them to potray their feelings.
But I can't potray my feeling. I just cant :-)
But the day I gauge the true essence of words,
I will cease to say that words are redundant.
They wont fail me ever.
I will convey myself to me.
Is it needed? Why do you care :)

Adios,
--eL

The Sukhatme Twin Towers ...

2007 was quite an eventful year. I started pursuing my Masters. In the due course made friends for life, learnt some lessons for life, became a better person and the list goes on. Come 2008, I was heading towards completing my masters degree and being a post graduate. But the most awaited event of 2008 was undoubtedly visiting the 'Twin Tower'.

I know United States lost their Twin Towers in 2001 and it was a wordly loss but my family got their 'personal' twin tower in 2007 in the form of Sukhatme Twins, Rajan and Tejas. The cynosure of Prajakta and Kedar Sukhatme's eyes :)

Before I start writing about them I must tell you all that these boys are real figters. Born when they were just 26 weeks old, they have fought the odds and survived and boy these guys have grown up to be such sweethearts :)

It is quite a pity that I got to meet my nephews only after such a long time. But like they say, better late than never.

The boys have pretty much kept me so happy in my short vacation that any words describing my happiness would sound redundant. What is so peculiar about them is that they are as much like each other as diametrically opposite ..

Rajan, I call him a funny guy. He is unintentionally so hilarious. The way he says 'uh oh' each time he attempts to do something 'forbidden' is just so cute. His face lits up with a 1000 watt smile when someone agrees to pick him up and his energy is so palpable. Today a funny incident happened with Rajan. He was looking behind at me and running forward and bang he goes into the wall. I thought 'thats it'. He is going to sink the world with this tears now but Rajan being the funny guy, turned back, looked at me and goes..' uh Oh' :D I cant say he is inquisitive because that doesnt do justice to his interests in things. Rajan redefines the word 'inquisitive'. I love him totally :)

Tejas, I call him the bholu ram and my cousin calls him Smarty Jones B-) .. Oh yea he definitely looks like a dude. His shy smile Im sure is going to give all the hollywood starkids a run for their money. Tejas is also the parrot of the Sukhatme family. Pretty much imitating everything and anything that we say in his childlike babble. Heard of Momma's boy may be but ever heard of Dadda's boy.. If not then here is an example. Tejas Sukhatme, I feel, is a complete Dadda's boy :) He is very tech savy unlike Rajan. You cant fool Tejas with a dysfunctional TV-remote .. He is smarter than you think he is :) and a complete darling for being such a non-fussy eater. Once you make him sit on his high chair with food he wouldnt get restless until he is full. My smarty jones is a sweetheart because he is such a charmer. Has managed to woo his Maasi with his dance moves already. I love him a lot :)

Life without kids may be good. But with them it seems complete. And when you have two such kids, Rajan and Tejas, it just adds more meaning to life.

Peace
--eL

Change of template ..

I visited my profile.. saw the black background and the white font .. got bored.

I think I need some colors in here.. I went thru the templates... didnt quite like any.. Thought the one that I have it on right now.. is comparatively better than the other ones ...

If any of my blogger friends can help me choose, I would be more than grateful.. If not then get used to it guys :)

Adios !!!

Peace,
--eL

Funny as it may sound...

Today I visited my blog profile after many days. I had this sudden urge of writing something. What, I really dont know.

Funny as it may sound but I still feel there are umpteen things my mind wishes to pen down defeated only by my will to not pen them down or may be worse .. I just dont know .. May be Im falling short of words :)

Funny as it may sound but my friends always thought I can manage to pretty much convey anything and everything(how correct and effective my communication is, I seldom know).. but today Im here sitting in front of the computer trying to figure out .. how should I communicate what I feel to myself.. * chuckles*

Funny as it may sound.. but I feel I should just go sleep.. despite my mind and body feeling too fresh for any nap..

Baah... guess I should just log off...

So..Adios !!!

--Peace
eL