Why??
Or may be I am passionate but unfortunately lack the will to bring my passion to life :-s
In the last few years I have met people passionately following:
-Music
-Food
-Paintings
-Colors
-Life
-Death
-Sorrow
-Happiness
and many more. When I sit down to think of my passion, I come up with nothing. Am I really that hollow? Well for records, I love reading books, listening to music, I am attracted to violin, I know how death can feel therefore I appreciate life a lot and anything and everything that comes with it, I like to slumber, argue with friends over matters of global importance and many such 'interesting' stuff yet when it comes to passion, I have none, I feel.
Yea, I am in the legion of people who dream big, dream really big. And yea all these dreams are day dreams. But I am scared to see these dreams come to reality. Ironic it is.
I wonder sometimes if passion could help me see thru my fears of achieving what I really want for myself. Some may agree, many may not. I know one thing for sure, nothing comes easy ( and for those who've had it easy.. I am sorry for them) so is it really 'passion' that keeps them going?
I absolutely love any work I do. I can not settle for anything less than 'super' when it comes to work. That is how I am. Sub standard work freaks me out. Does it mean I am passionate about my work?
I dont know. May be it is not as difficult as it appears to me. I have this uncanny ability to complicate matters beyond repair. Something I am not really proud of :D
May be, I am passionate. May be I just dont tag my efforts as one.
-eL
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Zephyr
A flower.
Simple and beautiful.
Merry and gay.
She danced with wind.
Played with birds.
Stared at the moonlit sky.
Awaited spring and her friends.
She epitomised Happiness. She epitomised Life.
But one day something happened. She got hurt.
After that day, she refused to dance. She refused to sway.
She refused to look at the stars.
For her, world was not the same anymore.
She was strong enough to not die or even kill herself
but not willful enough to live.
The ones to whom she gave hope, she appeared morose
The ones to whom she gave a reason to live, she appeared dead
Her friends, she realised were not her friends.
Tides changed course and so did they.
Standing alone in darkness one night she thought,
'If I have to live, I will live my life and leave a trail. A trail for people to follow. For people should know what one can do and I will lead the path to that way.'
She was strong. But she needed support.
Her body feebled with fear and apprehension.
'Guussshh....', came a gust of wind.
Flower swayed.
She looked up at the sky. And the stars shined upon her.
Her Zephyr came.
To help her live.
To help her rejoice.
My Zephyr came.
--adios.
Simple and beautiful.
Merry and gay.
She danced with wind.
Played with birds.
Stared at the moonlit sky.
Awaited spring and her friends.
She epitomised Happiness. She epitomised Life.
But one day something happened. She got hurt.
After that day, she refused to dance. She refused to sway.
She refused to look at the stars.
For her, world was not the same anymore.
She was strong enough to not die or even kill herself
but not willful enough to live.
The ones to whom she gave hope, she appeared morose
The ones to whom she gave a reason to live, she appeared dead
Her friends, she realised were not her friends.
Tides changed course and so did they.
Standing alone in darkness one night she thought,
'If I have to live, I will live my life and leave a trail. A trail for people to follow. For people should know what one can do and I will lead the path to that way.'
She was strong. But she needed support.
Her body feebled with fear and apprehension.
'Guussshh....', came a gust of wind.
Flower swayed.
She looked up at the sky. And the stars shined upon her.
Her Zephyr came.
To help her live.
To help her rejoice.
My Zephyr came.
--adios.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Long Island Ice Tea
Me and My Long Island Ice tea ...
with Dev and Sanju on the rocks... what a combination :D
with Dev and Sanju on the rocks... what a combination :D
Saturday, January 3, 2009
GOOD things about BAD times
I would always want to be happy... is it a crime? Well, No... but extremely stupid to desire something like this.
I am not saying one should not be happy. I mean, c'mmon why wouldn't someone want to feel good about the day just spent...
But lately I have realized that it is important to understand what 'happiness' is. Somehow after having experienced a couple of things in my life I now feel I was highly disillusioned by my understanding of the same.
This blog ain't about what happiness is. I guess different people perceive/define it differently. But in the recent times I have come to realize how myopic my outlook was towards life. I suddenly feel I have grown up... errrr, matured I mean :)
It wasn't an easy realization but yes, it called for a completely new outlook towards life. The 'GOOD things in BAD times' really taught me a lot. I just feel like enlisting a few prominent ones. The list wouldn't be exhaustive considering my brain cannot recollect everything at this given instance.
--Peace
eL
I am not saying one should not be happy. I mean, c'mmon why wouldn't someone want to feel good about the day just spent...
But lately I have realized that it is important to understand what 'happiness' is. Somehow after having experienced a couple of things in my life I now feel I was highly disillusioned by my understanding of the same.
This blog ain't about what happiness is. I guess different people perceive/define it differently. But in the recent times I have come to realize how myopic my outlook was towards life. I suddenly feel I have grown up... errrr, matured I mean :)
It wasn't an easy realization but yes, it called for a completely new outlook towards life. The 'GOOD things in BAD times' really taught me a lot. I just feel like enlisting a few prominent ones. The list wouldn't be exhaustive considering my brain cannot recollect everything at this given instance.
- You realize your inner strength, which you are oblivious to otherwise (I feel) and it is such a pity that one is unaware of the abundant strength that dwells within every individual.
- You know who your real friends are :)
- The word 'Selflessness' takes a all new meaning in the form of people who are just there to make you believe that the world is still as beautiful as you thought it ever was.
- God, do you introspect or what :D
- Family is the best support system anyone can get. Period :)
- Rationality suddenly seems to be the buzz word *chuckles*
- Knowing that Logic wins hands down against Emotions :|
- Ruthlessly pampered :D *Laughs devilishly*
- Constantly reminded how good you are :D :D *Laughs a little more*
- Development of an undying faith in a superior being (may not be true for all)
- A belief in 'Whatever happens, happens for the good' * Thinks about it again as I read it, nods her head, says, 'This is so freaking true' *
--Peace
eL
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Merry Christmas !!
I am in Edmonton, Canada for the Christmas week. It is darn cold out here where -30 seems to be a common temperature for most (uh oh :) ) But today even with this chill I feel particularly warm. I ponder for a while only to realise that it is the Christmas warmth all around me :)
Anywhere I see, I see light. Blues, reds and greens. Disparate colors yet the when they come together nothing could be more homogeneous. The picture is just too perfect. I am loving it :)
The pleasant sight of Mother Mary holding Jesus, Rudolph being hung on many doors, small children meddling around the hanging christmas socks and eagerly awaiting arrival of their dear Santa Claus is unparalleled. This festivity and merry brings nothing but a sense of calm. Reassuring that world is still a good place to live.
In current times when we hear of nothing but depressing economy, people of one religion killing others over god and land, I feel these festivities reinstate the fact that all religion preach goodness and prosperity for humanity in general.
Our ancestors strived hard to give us a world where we found love and peace. Our generation abused everything we inherited. If only we remember that the earth we live today is something that we have merely borrowed from our children then may be we will all stop this slaughter one day.
Here's hoping that we give our children an earth full of love and respect. Amen.
Merry X'mas to all.
Adios
-eL.
Anywhere I see, I see light. Blues, reds and greens. Disparate colors yet the when they come together nothing could be more homogeneous. The picture is just too perfect. I am loving it :)
The pleasant sight of Mother Mary holding Jesus, Rudolph being hung on many doors, small children meddling around the hanging christmas socks and eagerly awaiting arrival of their dear Santa Claus is unparalleled. This festivity and merry brings nothing but a sense of calm. Reassuring that world is still a good place to live.
In current times when we hear of nothing but depressing economy, people of one religion killing others over god and land, I feel these festivities reinstate the fact that all religion preach goodness and prosperity for humanity in general.
Our ancestors strived hard to give us a world where we found love and peace. Our generation abused everything we inherited. If only we remember that the earth we live today is something that we have merely borrowed from our children then may be we will all stop this slaughter one day.
Here's hoping that we give our children an earth full of love and respect. Amen.
Merry X'mas to all.
Adios
-eL.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
I am loved :)
Someone wrote this for me... just the right kind of thing when I felt unloved and uncared :)
You only dream about the perfect girl. She is usually a work of fiction, an artist's imagination, or a poet's verse. She lights up your day, and makes your heart jump with joy with every look at her. She is intelligent, beautiful and makes you feel alive.
Most lives are lived with only imagining such a beauty. Reading about her, watching her on screen, thinking about her in your dreams.
But i know of one such girl. She is strong and smart. Opinionated and emotional. She radiates a natural warmth that makes you fell happy to be around her. You long for her attention, and your day feels fulfilled even if she bestows upon u as much as a kind smile.
She has the beauty of the girl on the magazine at whom you can stare for hours. She sounds just like the song that fills your heart with joy and you have to listen to it over and over again. She smells like the fragrance that takes you home to a feeling of warmth and peace.
Ammu, you are that girl. You have the ability to make a thousands hearts bleed. It is impossible not to love you. It is impossible to ignore you. You have the words that captivate and the the personality that influences and the beauty that captures hearts.
With every day i know you, see you speak to u.. I am a better person.
You only dream about the perfect girl. She is usually a work of fiction, an artist's imagination, or a poet's verse. She lights up your day, and makes your heart jump with joy with every look at her. She is intelligent, beautiful and makes you feel alive.
Most lives are lived with only imagining such a beauty. Reading about her, watching her on screen, thinking about her in your dreams.
But i know of one such girl. She is strong and smart. Opinionated and emotional. She radiates a natural warmth that makes you fell happy to be around her. You long for her attention, and your day feels fulfilled even if she bestows upon u as much as a kind smile.
She has the beauty of the girl on the magazine at whom you can stare for hours. She sounds just like the song that fills your heart with joy and you have to listen to it over and over again. She smells like the fragrance that takes you home to a feeling of warmth and peace.
Ammu, you are that girl. You have the ability to make a thousands hearts bleed. It is impossible not to love you. It is impossible to ignore you. You have the words that captivate and the the personality that influences and the beauty that captures hearts.
With every day i know you, see you speak to u.. I am a better person.
Monday, November 24, 2008
:)
Chaand Bhi Dekha
Phool Bhi Dekha
Baadal Bijli Titli Jugnu
Koi Nahin Hai Aisa
Tera Husn Hai Jaisa
Meri Aankhon Ne Chuna Hai Tujhko Duniya Dekhkar
Kiska Chehra Ab Main Dekhoon
Tera Chehra Dekhkar
Simple is it yet the conveyed emotion feels complex.
Simple conundrum :)
I am amazed when the most simplest of words
come together to convey the most complex a feeling.
Words often fail me, I know.
Yet many choose them to potray their feelings.
But I can't potray my feeling. I just cant :-)
But the day I gauge the true essence of words,
I will cease to say that words are redundant.
They wont fail me ever.
I will convey myself to me.
Is it needed? Why do you care :)
Adios,
--eL
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